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Monday, March 31, 2008

I cant sleep well.

Again today need to wake up early.

Going for interview hais.

I no money already.

He think for himself and what about me?

He always didnt give me "an quan gan".

He lied again and again still dare to throw temper

say those harsh words to me.

Didnt treat me well

and he did those thing on me.

I now cant trust him.

I really dont know what he is thinking.

Gamble gamble gamble.

Really no future.

He say he wont anymore haha

of cos lah. If he got money again, things gonna be different

and alot of excuses will POP OUT again.

He say he will think once he 22!

But the next day........

I gonna get back everything that belong to me FIRST

then do what I should do.

In me, I still cant forgive.

He keep giving me stress...

He say he will change and I dont think he can change.

Now I got burden! Need to earn money to pay Jean Yip.

u're my everything ♥
6:58:00 AM

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Last night I went out with his mum to chong pang pasa malam!

Haa first time went out with her alone.

Went there to buy food for our partner. Lols..

She held me while crossing the road C=

We said alot of things.

Not bad not bad. ^^

And today....

I went to PS to do facial.

They wanna me to take another course using machine.

Zzz.. 1388 haven add 7% GST.

So nvm. They say good for me then just take and I wanna give half first.

Going to pay $800 and they say didnt approve and can check balance using their machine

so I checked and left 358??????

How come???

So I gave $300 only and called my mother to check for me. Hais

I thought will be the machine problem or whatever.

Went back Yishun I checked again and left $58...

I dont want or can say CANT say too much.

Dont want to let my mum know.

But I cried till my eyes so swollen.

His parent went to my home here and look for me. Hais

They didnt eat and went out and look.

His dad walk floor by floor. Zzz..

Xin tong*

I need to forgive u cos of ur parent.

But .....

u're my everything ♥
9:03:00 PM

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Did I saw that??

Last night, alone in his room watching tv and dont know why I'll walk to the window there.
Look far away and opposite, Yishun Town Secondary the top storey I saw a white guy ba?
I cant see clearly didnt wear spec also didnt know is human or.....
He walked pass then I cant see him anymore cos got a wall blocking so was thinking aiya nothing de lah.

Continue stand there and watch and again thing repeat.
Like same person in white dont know pop out from where again walk pass and gone.
was thinking hmm if it happen again means.............
so I waited and see and REALLY~
Again walk pass and TA TA!
impossible for him to walk back and walk again.
And for what he keep doing it?
I ran out to the living room and told Dar about it.
Zzz he always like that just say aiya got people lah bla la la.
x.X I asked him to look but nothing le.

whatever whatever.
Eeeeyerr~

u're my everything ♥
5:06:00 PM

Friday, March 28, 2008

I called the flower shop at Taka.

Didnt want to work so far but flower shop hmm.. sounds not bad!

They want full time ba?! Keep asking me grad? going back sch? or whatever.

Haa. ask me 4pm to interview but I choose monday.

Shun bian go get my Hp :D

I feel ALOT ALOT better!

This few days was thinking what next? no job etc.

Really stress up. At least I got something !

I am a wander ghost.

hmm.. was thinking who to accompany me! T.T

Dar this week long weekend. Thur off Fri off Zzz..

So monday, he is OUT!

I hate his fucking attitude & temper!

Just now was playing mahjong and he throw temper again!

Lose always like that!

and was like saying is my fault!

cos I was talking and talking.

Mahjong rules got say cannot talk!?!?

He always like that. Cant treat me good?!

Always say he was just disturbing me bla la la la...

If I keep disturb him like what he did, what will he feels?

He only think for himself.

He dont cherish me & treat me like his beloved gf then.....

I will......

I will destroy him!!

and then.....

MUAHAHHAHAHHAHA!!

U know! Those insane people are made by u GUYS!

Peel! Tear! Chew! Screw! Poke! Dig! Smack! Twist! Chop!

I am a violent girl. (alot of ppl knew that)

HAHAHAHA.. I can be really crazy :D

SEOW CHEE WEI!

u wanna be my main character?

u're my everything ♥
3:36:00 PM

Friday, March 21, 2008

First time we met. 16 July 2007.

Second time. 28 July 2007.

First time he came to my house. 31 July 2007.

All started with the first kiss and

Together on

- 07 August 2007 -

Our first month, he will buy this to surprise me

and after that nth like this happen.

He treat me good when he trying to win my heart

and when he get it, he just take it for granted.

and the memories...

Honestly, I wanna lie on this back everyday. Can I?

Can someone stop my tears?

It dripped everyday

everytime when I think of those....

I am so stress up. Can u please stop it?!

Can u treat me just like the past when u willing to do anything for me!?

I am just a normal simple girl who needed love care and attention.

u're my everything ♥
3:42:00 PM

Feel like dying.

He is making me fucking xin ku.

sms-ed him TON of messages.

Hais. Need to say like I dont want to break please answer the call!

MY FAULT MEH??

He lied to me! Thats what I HATE THE MOST!

Ok. He told me he went there only what!

He didnt do anything else already. He didnt betray me.

........... THEN WHY WANNA LIE ABOUT THAT?

okay. I know he will scare that I will get angry BUT

better then NOW RIGHT?!

when I found out by myself.

The feeling is just like being betrayed.

I realised how Bee's feel.

I wont blame her for breaking and going back to him again and again.

u guys wont know how we feel.

We want to let go BUT WE CANT!!

WE FUCKING CANT! zzz

I am weak. I lose to him.

He is a fucking worst boyfriend!

Girls loves bad guy eh?!

hais.

DAR can u please dont ever lied to me!

I am tired. Cant u just tell me?!

At least I will angry awhile but what is done already done.

Better then lying.

Still tried to cover urself by saying U FORGOT TO TELL ME!

Hais. Obviously u're trying to lie again.

And u say out loud, 早知道就跟你讲.

我以后what also tell u. 你会生气我也讲!!

In the first place when we started to get together, I already told him to tell me everything

dont hide from me if not I will be more angry. He say okok. BUT?

He say nth else liao. He only lied this.

Who will admit?

so must wait for me to found out myself again?!?!

He always dont want to admit he is in a wrong.

Say shun bian go there. Ya.. lie somemore.

Aiya. always push the fault all over the place.

FUCKING HURT!

u're my everything ♥
3:19:00 PM

Ok. I spotted him!

He lied to me!

He was playing mahjong so I cant ask.

I guessed is during CNY and! I was right.

I knew he lied cos I know he didnt went out with them esp the guy infront before!

He didnt tell me! WTF.

DISAPPOINTED LA!

I cant break! He dont want! Hais.

I am so sick of it!

Dont wish to write more. Nth to say abt him.

OK this time we break!

He do nth to get me back. He just avoid.

He do something wrong and make till like all my fault now!

Zzz..

He dont love me?

u're my everything ♥
3:51:00 AM

Thursday, March 20, 2008

... My life can be really sucks!

Even my own boyfriend!

We 3 days already didnt meet but he reached my house, he used the com.

Kissed me and watch video on my phone.

He came over and say he go home liao.

His "brother" derrick sms-ed him too and say wanna meet later!

He deleted it! Dont know it's true or not. Hais

He left! He really left..

We meet 1 hour like that or less only and he gone home!

Really disppointed loh!

I felt I got nothing left.

ITE didnt approve. No job. No boyfriend!!

I cried HARD real HARD!

When I needed him, he is not there.

What are boyfriend for?

He say go back play audition with me BUT still early cant he just acc me.

Weekend not going over his house means another 3 days not meeting!!

AND ITS LIKE NOTHING TO HIM!

FUCK!

He say I am first I am first!

But he do nothing to prove it.

He said he miss me but he didnt do any action.

KNOW WHAT HE SAY!

He say I know can le what!! Zzz

Who know!?!?

Tired..

and yes! He reached home didnt give me a call.

Before that, we were talking and he wanna buy TOTO!

So I hang up saying I going to call Ricky. Haa.

And after that he didnt pick up and phone!

Called his house also noone answer!

Should be him who called his mother not to answer it.

He should be telling his mum about my bads. Whatever.

After 2 hours I think, he finally replied!

He said, you alr call ricky i damn disappointed..

lols. He say what then what loh.

Who give the most disapointment??

I had enough of every fuck he gave!

so I just told him, ok fine. then dont find me anymore.

~~KNOW WHY HE DONT BOTHER?~~

~~Cos he can freely GO OUT with anyone he wants NOW!~~

~~He no need to tell me and no need to take my attitude!~~

~~Yeah yeah.. Good job.~~

Haha. I am finding job now.

u're my everything ♥
2:42:00 PM

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

SUPER BORING !

No.job.No.School.

Arghh.

Dar.changed.

He.say.I.think.too.much.

Not.happening.on.him.

He.wont.know.

He.always.think.he.is.the.best!

Boring.lah!

Today.actually.going.out.with.Bee.to.Dover.ITE.

wanna.apply/appeal.at.there.

Raining.and.cant.go.out.Hais.

Aiya.Dont.know.what.I.want!

I.am.so.sway!

Everythings.turn.BAD.for.me!

UNFAIR! UNFAIR! UNFAIR!!

u're my everything ♥
7:55:00 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Just came back!

3 days wont be seeing him. Monday and Wednesday he will be having guard duty!

Went out with them! So long didnt meet all together!!

At there feed wen zi ! Zzz.. ITCHY~

Tiring. So long didnt relax but also not really relaxing. YAWN!

and my spacebar is spoil! Thx ar Seow Chee Wei!

u're my everything ♥
12:09:00 AM

Monday, March 17, 2008

HE CHANGED!

Thats what I fucking feels!

u're my everything ♥
7:35:00 AM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Ah~ Today I cant get to edit finish my posts!

Just edited one page! Still got two more pages! Didnt realise got so many pages.

Dar today off so was playing audition with him!

After that Siqi called me and say she and Qian coming over to my house.

While waiting, continue play my audition. They very long leh!

They reached and Qian closed my room door! SX also coming.

When they wanna smoke, they cant get to open my door!

WTF! WE ARE STUCK INSIDE! Zzz..

Smokey room! Three of them smoke and I gonna smoke their second-hand!

Very very very and my mum is back! But still cant open!

I need screwdriver and yesterday!

Just yesterday only, my dad took it out from my room! SWAY~

She passed the screwdriver thru the top

and I screw everything but still cant open it!

SX used the cutter or whatever and he destroyed my lock!

Now my door has a hole! T.T Cant lock my door!!

We played mahjong!

Starting I was losing.. But I fight back! SCARE RIGHT!

MUAHAHAHA..

Doing tong zi and the one who throw gonna bao!

The sway one goes to ZHENG SIQI~ $6.40!

Next round my cards also very nice! Doing bamboo!

Left 5 & 6 and I threw 6! Then Qian threw 6! SIQI ALSO THREW 6!

Hais.. Cant get to win that round!

Ended and I win $7.70. Siqi losed.

But never mind she rich what :D

WOOTS! Did my audition licence!

LEVEL 25! :D

u're my everything ♥
9:06:00 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Wa! Now very very late already.

I was editing my posts. Zzz Left three more pages.

Didnt realise that i wrote so many posts!

TIRED NOW!

Tomorrow then continue..

Read back and saw alot of spelling mistake etc!

WTH~ Didnt notice it. zzz

Dar this few day keep give me stunn!

Zzz.. Bloody idiot !

Poyan till so late! And told me low batt. Didnt contact me for 8hours!

And suddenly wanna try divert?!

Went off with his brother yesterday night for 2 hours without letting me know! Zzz

ARGHHHH~

I am still waiting for the letter!

He told me his mum miss me eh! Hee..

She wanna play mahjong with me say I funny.

She also keep some nian gao for me!

So qiao I friday wanna bring nian gao for her to eat! :D

I hate HIM !

Zhang Yu's shan xia DAMN NICE !

u're my everything ♥
10:43:00 PM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

-UPDATED-
Aw~ I found some nice one!
But their code.....
Hais cant suit in my mouse become weird.
So.. forget it lah. Continue using this blogskin.
Just change the alignment maybe will be better! :D
Gonna edit ALL my previous post! BUSY BUSY~

Facial Day again.

AHHHHHHH so pain can! She was like pinching my face. OUCHHHHH!

This is the second times she did it for me. BOTH THE SAME PAIN!

but this time i really cannot tahan sia! I was like going to @#$%*&@# her.

But if i scolded her, later she revenge on my face how?! T_T

But my face is getting better?! Yea i think. Haa :D

Played mahjong with his parents without make up. lols.. trying not to make up :D

unless going out shopping or whatever shyt.

I wanna change blogskin! But i cant find any pretty one.

Zzz Dar said mine already very nice.

The space was like so small lah. Hmm search again when i went back home tomorrow.

Yaya.. Im not going to care about his things.

Anyway i also dont feel like asking. Lazy and tired. Always ask, need to see his fuking face. Eeeyerr for what fuk.

Anyway he is not using my money who the hell cares.

Dont find me when u dont have money. I wont fork money out for u to gamble!

He ownself can settle what! He so li hai mah.

Everything no need to tell me then whatever lah.

Pity his family.

u're my everything ♥
5:47:00 PM

Friday, March 07, 2008

OKAY! another problem again.

He borrow money from his friend, keith who is so call a "loanshark".

He can act like nothing happen for 2-3weeks! Well done lah Seow Chee Wei!

I wont know what else he is hiding.

$500 leh! Everyweek, he need to pay $40 until he return the $500

AND he had given $80!?

He is waiting for his salary so that he can return!

WTH. He now left $200 or $100 plus?!

HE SPEND SO FAST?!?!?!?!

His salary $400 plus! Give back the money he left how much sia!

How is he going to survive his march!?!?!

He say he can settle one that why he didnt tell me.

For what need to tell me! Later i will ask him to return or i will worry.

RUBBISH! Is he dont wish to hear me nagging!

Ya. Everything just keep it from me. He can say till so easy eh.

Cos it didnt happen on him!

I keep everything from him also not my fault loh?!

I wanna break with him. DAMN DISAPPOINTED LA.

He told me before about keith but he say he wont loan.

But now what?!

He always always always always always always say and dooooo differently lah.

I am so tired of it can. He promised that he wont loan it in the future.

He no money and he need to eat one. Noone give him money so he loan from keith.

I told him if he didnt gamble, there will be alot of money left for him to spend!

And if that time he did what he promise me, his money wont get stolen!! Zzz..

Today is our 7th month~

and it mean nothing to me.

Yesterday night, I said I wanna break and he say I know that he dont have money so i leave him! What rubbish is that. So he think I got money so he hold on tight on me till i no money and then he agree to let me go lah!?

Again he say Derrick' gf gave Derrick dont know how much already.

Last time he dont have money she didnt say anything just fork out for him.

He said:

"THIS IS WHAT A GOOD GIRLFRIEND WILL DO!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA MADE ME LAUGH!

Didnt i do that? So.. is he a GOOD BOYFRIEND?!?! He is just a shyt can!

Wanna say me?

PLEASE LOOK INTO THE MIRROR FIRST!

I told him alot of times! Where is his care, concern etc?!

He say he got what!

I sick, he ask me got better anot.

HAHAHHA c'mon lah. I need that? My friends also can do that.

So why I need a boyfriend? Just got friends can le lah!

I sick he pour water for me! HAHAHAHA SO THIS IS A GOOD BOYFRIEND?!

I can just shout for my sister/brother to pour.

Who the hell need that! And he said till how great he is!

OMG. Really feel like slapping him.

I did almost everythings he requested and did he do it?!

NONONONONONO~ Just a simple task he cant do it .

Why must i still waste my time on him.

He is so selfish!

He say he is changing.

This week he didnt really give any attitude! SO WHAT SO WHAT~

In the first place, u shouldnt give it le what!

Whatever lah.

I am going to do whatever I want.

I wont think about how he feels. Who cares. He didnt think for me either.

u're my everything ♥
1:48:00 PM

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Tired Tired Tired!

Went back home from yishun early in the morning!

Every Monday, always like that!

YAWN~

Going out with Bee and Vi to Bugis later.

My Hp's speaker spoil sia!

Asked them to accompany me to Wisma and service it and then go bugis.

Bee not feeling well and that Sony Ericsson is CLOSED! SWAY!~

Dont know what staff day lah! Shyt em lah. Waste my time loh!

Sat at the food court talk cock and 顺便 eat.

The food there is so expensive can! YAWN~

A bowl of noodle $4. zzz

Rest quite long and when Bee get better, we went over to Cine.

After that Heeren and waited for Jake to bring Bee back!

And yes... they patch back already.

Right after the day they break.

Hais~ Problem is still there.

What can i say?!?! Guys are so fuk up! Zz..

After Bee is gone, we went over to Far East!

Bought what we wanna buy. Haha

Boring! CHEAPER PLS!

LEG PAIN LEG PAIN!

Our leg are super pain. Walk too much:D

Dont feel like talking about Dar.

Boring and tired of saying things about him. He gone back to his love nest Yishun.

And I went back to my HOME SWEET HOME!

Asked Vi to help me scan! :D

u're my everything ♥
7:44:00 AM

Sunday, March 02, 2008

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y S E O W C H E E W E I !

Going over to Orchard~

We have been thinking where to go, what to eat for quite a long time.

And again, he choose to go Sushi Tei!

My birthday, we went to eat Sushi Tei at VivoCity already so this time is Orchard.

Nearest. HAHAHA . Wadeva!

All i know is that I am going to spend alot! T.T

I hate birthday esp OTHER PEOPLE! LOL.

Need to think what to buy where to go. Aiya! Sian lah.

Raining day!

I hate to go out on raining day. Haa everyone hated that.

Went to Far East first. Brought some food to eat hungry seh.

Ate those curry puff etc etc and spent about $8!

Wa piang cannot go out one! Really waste money!

Walk here and there.

Dar say wanna eat Sushi Tei at Ngee Ann City but we walked till Paragon.

So eat at there. Qian used to work there. Haa.

He dont want so early to eat so we walk and walk wanna waste our time.

But 4 plus already boring sia.

I requested to go over Ngee Ann but he say FOR WHAT

lol so went in and eat le.

YakiNiku Don $10!

PHOENIX ROLL $13! WE LOVED THIS!

Inside cripsy outside soft soft. Aiya NICE LA!

Meat Gyoza $5! Wtf loh. Not nice de.

Salmon Cream Sauce $9. Not bad if i added chilli powder.

TOTAL $49.90!!

Wtf the towel got add money one! AND I DIDNT USE IT! Zzz.. Wanna walk back to Orchard Mrt but dar wanna use toilet but end up we play pool! haha. 3-5! Zzz After that went home! Tired like hell. Leg pain~ Went north point to take photos. $3 nia! Haha.. No scanner zzz sian