GOD IS SO UNFAIR TO ME!!
Feeling damn sick now.
Coldcoldcold~
no1 here to take good care of me.
ya. we break off already.
due to alot of things but he will always thought is small matters.
But he dont know that when we dont solve it, it'll become big matters!
Today he then admit that he doesnt wanna "tong ju".
He say we nv "tong ju" feeling will fade etc etc meh?!
He dont know one lah. he didnt think REAL FAR!
he say will meet me but once u work will get very tired then where will have the strength to come all the way to batok and then go back again.
You will stay at home cos ur workplace is near then what the use to run here and there.
YISHUN & BUKIT BATOK NOT NEAR LEH!
zZz .. he just think that I unreasonable.
But I did those for what?
I want to maintain a very gd relationship got wrong meh.
I am the one who keep giving in and he didnt give any effort.
I am really tired!
wacking myself. really feel like wacking people.
but when I wack him, xin tong so I wack myself better.
useless fcuk!!
He say b'cos of me, he can just come stay with me if I want.
Cos he loves me so he will do it.
hais. but Im not that selfish as I know he dont like it.
When he come my house, sometime already keep gave me attitude, black face those stupid temper. and by doing that, he will make me pekcek and we quarrel.
Go toilet also need to see who outside. If got ppl, he later then go one! hais
He said he dont want "tong ju" cos will quarrel! HAHAHA cb rubbish!!
All those is he make one what. hais
Wanted to "tong ju" just to prevent any other disturbing thing happen.
I need my boyfriend to be by my side.
but he seem like dont need me.....
What we want and needs are so different. how to be together.
so i request a break off is much better then drag drag drag till dont know where.
He say small matter wanna break meh. but those to me are not small.
In the future, the problem will still come.
He just wont think far. He always say for what for what.
I cant communicate with him at all.
I always wanna talk with him then he avoid.
It's like I wanna settle down but he still wanna play around.
If he wanna fool ard wander ard can just tell me honestly no need give alot of excuses.
hais somemore no "an quan gan".
With him, like no future.
A gambler. A guy who loves to see girls. Liar! thats what i hate the most.
All bad, he got. But I accepted all those and still treat him real gd.
Everythings think for him.
But ended up what I get!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alone!Alone!Alone!
He always say he wanna change.
He say he love me deeply no matter how he treat me.
If he loves me, he wont treat me like that le.
forget it.
I know I can get a much better guy.
But.....
To find a guy whom u love is hard.
I found him and I thought.....
I thought....
I really thought........
Who can help to release ALL my pains.
I wanna release it.
Trying to .......
It's not a foolish thing.
SHUT UP!